I pledge my commitment to the Blog for Mental Health 2014 Project. I will blog about mental health topics not only for myself, but for others. By displaying this badge, I show my pride, dedication, and acceptance for mental health. I use this to promote mental health education in the struggle to erase stigma.
In 2014, I was excited to learn about A Canvas of the Minds. This important blog for mental health fights the stigma of mental illness. It inspired me as I began to write Life of a Phoenix.
I began Life of a Phoenix for several reasons.
One reason was to rediscover and nurture a creative side that I thought was lost, or only imaginary in the first place. I love to write. I have felt for many years that I have had nothing to say. I am reclaiming stories and retelling or telling them here. I am pursuing a dream of writing for a living one day. In the meantime, this is my voice.
Second, this is a time for me of great stress, sorrow, anger and a few feelings I didn’t know I felt. It is a healing time of my life. I have been on a medical leave from work for many months now, after a year of loss and struggle that would challenge anyone. I’m not looking for pity when I say that – just telling you, because I don’t feel special about this. I feel lucky that I am in a position to receive the help and support I need. I have become a psychiatric outpatient during my leave, and I have the great fortune to be in full time group therapy, and to have close review of the medications I take to help me with depression and anxiety. I am lucky. Many are not.
Third, I want to sort out, as I put it in my posts about “being a Phoenix”, the “plot lines” or “middle” parts of my life, especially over the last two years or so. I want to do it with an honesty and humour that is entertaining and inspirational for me and for those who follow my posts.
A lot of what I write is pretty raw. I’m growing as a writer, and a person. Come with me, if you like. I hope you do.